“As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” Joshua 24:15
“Elijah went before the people and said, ‘How long will you waver between two opinions? If the LORD is God, follow him; but if Baal is God, follow him.’ But the people said nothing.” 1 Kings 18:21
“Seek the LORD while he may be found; call on him while he is near.” Isaiah 55:8
“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13
“No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.” Matthew 6:24
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33
What if God is the reward?
That’s the question that I couldn’t shake. I mean, I love God. I really am thankful God created me, gave me life, and eternal life through Jesus. I guess the thing that I wanted was something more. But then I thought about God, and the way that God is an ever increasing reality to the person who wholeheartedly seeks Him. Although he may not be a God who is programmed to make sure our plans and deepest desires are realized, God does reveal himself to the seeker in various ways. Less like an engine. More like the evolution of a season.
Anyway, back to the topic at hand. I realized I wasn’t looking for more as my reward, because there is always more God to chime to know and be known by. I realized I was looking for something else. Someone else.
Which is a completely different problem altogether.
The word for that is idolatry. Looking for something or someone to be a greater satisfaction in life for us than the Source of life himself.
As you can see, I found something quite revolting inside me. Within me is a heart that has adulterous inclinations to leave the greatest lover known to humanity, a God who empties himself of divinity to take all of our depravity onto himself on a tree. This is absurd, yet this is the love people dream of. The love that leads someone to live to die, and leaves us all dying so that we can live. An upside down saga of love is brilliant enough to reveal that more than gravity draws us to our roots, for our depth comes from the Lord.
God makes some big claims about Himself. He says he is sufficient, he is powerful, he is our counselor, our rock, rabbi, and redeemer.
The big question we have to answer is this:
Is God enough?
If so, our greatest reward might not be finding the plans God has for us. If God is truly enough, then our greatest reward might just be God.